fEeLinG nOt gOod...
haiz.. still the same...feeling not good..seriously now no words could express the agony of my soul!!!!!no one can understand hw i feel..maybe some may think is small matter n some may say im being too emotional..m i showing out too obvious on my face??? will i affect my frenz who are around me?? juz like [???],one fren of mine who think tt im a pessimistic person n i might affect her n her bf think so...n i juz cant do anything cos i oso don wish to be like tt but i juz noe tt im emotional n the worse is... i cant control it...maybe becos of tt i lose her [???]..she is one tt i rely on when im sad..but nw i onli noe i must learn to be independent..
today,one of my tutor noticed it n he said is there anything bothering me?? he realised tt im not as cheerful as last semester. well, i juz replied tt im juz a problematic child...i hope i will..thanks mr sim...maybe im rude as in i tok quite loud to one of my classmate cos he was playing the song 'jie kou' so loud tt reali can affect me..then i juz say 'hey don play so loud lei..'haha..beside tt i missed one of my fren..another one who i can share all my things wif..but now we don see each other so often n even to get to see each other,we will tok abt other thing cos i cant juz throw all my things to her rite..like tt nt onli spoil her day n like tt we hav lesser time to 'xu xu jiu'.. saying abt her i ask told 'jie' tt though we r close but we didnt tok on phone b4..she reali understand me well lo..i didnt tell her anything but she juz suddenly pop out to ask 'y u seems to be sad sad like tt'...i guess its becos we get to noe each other better nw tts y..never will she left me out lo..i reali appreciate her as a gd fren of mine..n today i ask her one toopid qns i ask her hw 'arh'(close) we r..cos we tok abt someone who is trying to be 'arh' wif her..though i didnt tell her all my things in detail but i noe if i did she will console me..i reali hope tt she will nt like others who enter n leave so easily...who i don noe can consider as fren or juz passerby..
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